I know great things are coming and God is preparing His people for something greater. I’ve been in this waiting season for a long time. I don’t know where God is taking me. I don’t quite understand what Jesus is doing in this very moment. I am clueless as to where God wants me to relocate to. I don’t see how my finances are going to get better. I have no idea what job God has in store for me. I don’t like working for anybody. I feel like jobs were created to steal peoples dreams. On the other hand I’m scared to be a stay at home mom because having no income scares me. I don’t want to keep worrying about how I will find money to pay my bills.
In all honesty I’m going to be my own boss one day. I desire to start making money from home but I don’t know how. I have many ideas but I don’t know where to start. However, in the midst of all these uncertainties I do know that whatever I do in life I want to do it for Jesus. All I want to do in this lifetime is help people get to Jesus. I have visions for my blog, to start a YouTube ministry, to become an author and so much more. I have many talents yet I want to use everything given to me to preach the good news just like Jesus. I can’t imagine myself doing anything else in this world because before I met Jesus I didn’t have any dreams or vision.
The unknown makes me feel uncomfortable because I’m so used to always being in control of everything. I understand God shakes things up and makes things uncomfortable so we can get moving. Even though I don’t know what I’m supposed to be doing in this moment, I trust Dad. In the meantime I want to thank Jesus and praise Him for the blessings I do have. Every morning by His grace I wake up full of life. I might not have everything physically but my soul has all it needs. “The Lord is my strength and my shield; in him my heart trusts, and I am helped; my heart is filled with Joy, and with my song I give thanks to him.” (Psalm 28:7)