I came back to Cali to work on my relationship with the father of my son. God made it happen. We both did things we should have not done but we learned from our mistakes. Nobody’s perfect, we’re two imperfect people trying to build and have something we never had in our own families. Both of our parents didn’t end up together, people in our family do not follow God the right way and last, nobody is married. But I realized as long as we try and never give up, God will make a way. Thank you Lord I did not understand then why everything happened the way it did but I do now. Things had to fall apart so they can come back together but better and in your will. When we try to do things in our will and without the Lord it will not prosper.
Our mistake was getting too comfortable to the point where we did not keep God front and center of everything. We were focused on the wrong things, for example like social media, the people, the world, etc… everything but God and our relationship. We started doing stuff through our strength instead of Christ’s strength. “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” (Philippians 4:13) Anything that failed was not in God’s will because when you walk with the Lord everything will prosper. The crazy part is that it all went down so bad to the point that you know the only way we could have ever gotten back together was because of God. I give all the glory to my Jesus because I couldn’t have done this alone.
We had to lose each other to learn how to appreciate each other. Deep down in my heart I wasn’t worried because I know what’s meant to be will always be no matter what happens. You can not prevent what God has in store for you. You can only slow down the process. God will always give us the way but the devil will also give us a way. It is up to us to choose the right way because we make our own decisions at the end of the day. We shouldn’t blame Jesus or God because only good comes from them. Everything starts with self healing. Heal from your past traumas so you do not project it on others. Always remember to love God first and always, love yourself, and love others how you want to be loved.
Lord, I pray for my family, friends, and everyone around the world. May you be merciful and graceful to your people and hear us when we call upon your name. Please heal the land Jesus, heal everyone in pain spiritually, mentally, emotionally and physically. Renew in me a clean heart and make all things new in your will. In Jesus name, Amen.