Outcast

If the world hates you, just remember that it has hated me first. (John 15:18)

I used to feel so alone in a world surrounded by people. I grew up alone, an outcast to the world. Nobody was there for me growing up, I had to figure life out on my own. Meanwhile I was just looking for love in people that only cared about their own selfish needs and money. In exchange for my love people paid me with deceit, lies, and dishonesty. Little did I know God was always there with me and I was never meant to fit in with the world.

It’s not like I knew this was who I was supposed to become. Before all this I thought I wanted to be a lawyer. I don’t remember how it really happened… it just happened. I remember being in a dark place and a light came. I fell in love with my Creator in a way not most pursue. It came to me unexpectedly and I didn’t question it because it just felt right. It striked me like a lightning bolt in the middle of a desert. The only one I could always call on was Jesus.

Truth is it’s better to be alone and rejoice than to be surrounded by life yet still feel dead inside. Life is too short to be worried about things that you will not even remember a year later. For God did not put us on this earth to carry our burdens because Jesus is already carrying our burdens. Jesus died on the cross for all of our sins and committed no sin, just miracles. He’ll give us anything in our hearts desire if it’s in His will. “Take delight in the LORD, and he will give you the desires of your heart.” (Psalm 37:4 NIV)

No matter what comes your way, always remember Christ got us. “Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.” (Psalm 23:4 NIV) If Jesus can walk on water and move mountains, then remember nothing is too small or too big for our Lord. All he wants us to do is confide in Him first before doing anything. He wants us to know that how he envisions us is way bigger than what we can imagine for ourselves.