Let me tell you about how all this time what I thought was insignificant is what God is actually going to use to bless me. All along I thought this was a storm but it was a test. God was testing me to see if I really didn’t need what I thought had no value. For instance, at one point in time I just ignored and belittled the father of my son because of the hurt he had caused me. After a while I was just angry and we argued all the time. Everything he did annoyed me and we lost all of our communication to the point where when we talked we only yelled at each other. We both were wrong, hurt, in pain and unhealed. My mistake was not learning how to forgive, move on and not bring stuff up. However, this is why God gave me this test so I can learn that what I think is the problem, is actually the solution to my problem.
Sometimes I have doubts and faith working at the same time. I know it’s wrong but I’m human too. I’m not perfect like people portray me out to be. Just because I always try to see the light in the darkness doesn’t mean I don’t sometimes experience dark times. Truth be told my faith will always be bigger than me and my problems. I know God is who He says and I know Jesus can perform many things. Jesus died on the cross for us and committed no Sin. If that right there doesn’t make your heart sad then I don’t know. He didn’t have to give up His life but if He wouldn’t of had we would have not gotten the Holy Spirit in exchange. God knew humanity needed a spirit to guide us. God created us pure but the first humans committed the first Sin on their own.
Adam and Eve were the first people on earth. God created Adam from the dust and then pulled Eve out of his rib. Anyways God told Adam and Eve not to eat a fruit from the tree of life. God didn’t want them to eat from the fruit because then they would become like God and have too much knowledge. Well, the serpent tricked Eve into eating the apple and boom that was the first Sin in the world. “The woman saw how beautiful the tree was and how good its fruit would be to eat, and she thought how wonderful it would be to become wise. So she took some of the fruit and ate it. Then she gave some to her husband, and he also ate it. As soon as they had eaten it, they were given understanding and realized that they were naked; so they sewed fig leaves together and covered themselves.” (Genesis 3:6-7 GNT)