I can’t help but to think that I was just settling in life. I know I came back to California to give everything a try but I wasn’t feeling it. Things are not the same and I always had to question everything. So, it got to the point where I was like, is this guy really the dude for me? I feel like I deserve better . I don’t want to teach a man how to treat me, the right one will already know. I know love is not repeatedly hurting the other person to the point where they don’t even want to try anymore. My love is unconditional but I’m not going to let people take advantage of my kindness. You can love a person and not trust them. You can always love again… but trust? Once it is broken it’s hard to repair. I wonder why we women repeatedly give men many chances to continually keep hurting us? However, if the tables were turned, guys couldn’t take the same heat they give. Why are guys set to different standards than girls? I’m so sick and tired of words, most of the dudes out here have a big talk but small game. Meaning their actions do not meet their words.