I’m right here healing with y’all. I don’t ever want y’all to think my life is all good and smiles. We all go through things and are fighting our own separate battles. So, if nobody ever tells you this I just want to let you know I see you, keep on going and don’t give up. Healing is a dance not a switch, you can’t just heal from one night to another. it’s a process. Most days I’m happy and sometimes I get sad out of nowhere. I dislike when people want to act like their life is perfect and come into mine to judge. When you walk a mile in my shoes then you will understand why I am the way I am. I know it can be hard in times of uncertainty but if I’m honest this journey is only growing my faith. God literally isolated me to the point where I can only depend on Him.
At first I didn’t understand why I was going through all this but I choose to believe He is making me stronger. If I sit here and doubt, worry, fear and think negatively I’m going to think myself into a dark place. I choose to avoid that because I saw what it did to me in the past… It led me to a very dark place and I was so depressed while pregnant and after I gave birth. Therefore I am careful of how I think. “Be careful how you think; your life is shaped by your thoughts.” (Proverbs 4:23 GNT) Honestly I’m so thankful for my father’s teachings, his promises keep me sane and bring me peace. I couldn’t have been able to make it this far without him. Thank you Jesus for always having my back when the world turns its back on me.