Forgiveness

I’m not going to lie, I had a hard time forgiving people. I used to hold on to things longer than I should have. Every opportunity I had I would dwell on what people did to me. Sometimes I would dwell on everything I did wrong in the past. I spent time stuck in the past and what I could have done differently. I spent my time thinking something was wrong with me. I felt insufficient because I always felt invisible to everyone around me. I’m the type to put everyone first while I come last to everyone. But God saw me first and brought me all the way to the front. Where I was once in the back I’m now in the front.

God won’t break my heart. Jesus won’t let me fall. Instead they will strengthen me and pick me up whenever I need it. Their words are all I needed to change my heart. They comforted with their words and the un forgiveness, bitterness, resentment, and hatred faded away. The more wisdom I get from them the less everything hurts. I had to learn to forgive just as Jesus forgave me. The more they teach me the more I understand I don’t need to fight my own battles. God will fight all of our battles just as he did with David. Or what you think David did all that by his own strength in the book of 2 Samuel.

David was undefeated and it was all because God was always there with him and David recognized that. God was with him every step of the way. “I have been with you wherever you have gone, and I have defeated all your enemies as you advanced. I will make you as famous as the greatest leaders in the world.” (‭‭2 Samuel‬ ‭7:9‬ ‭GNT‬‬) Even when David sinned and committed adultery with Bathsheba, God still forgave him. So if God can forgive I can too. Plus I don’t want to block my blessing because I chose to not listen to my father. I’m no longer letting my emotions control me, I’m controlling them.